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Posted on May 24, 2022May 24, 2022Categories advice, conflict, fresh start, friendships, growth mindset, hopeful, introspection, journal, relationships, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Forgiveness is not for them…

I think there is such a misconception about what forgiveness is… There has to be because I can’t fathom any other reason why someone would willingly choose to NOT forgive someone… I also think a lot of people believe that forgiving someone means that you have to reconcile with that person and let them back in your life… It doesn’t… Or perhaps some people think that forgiving someone means that you have to pretend the offense didn’t occur… It doesn’t … Continue reading “Forgiveness is not for them…”

Posted on May 16, 2022May 16, 2022Categories advice, anticipation, grief, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , ,

I can’t remember what it was like…

Pain really has this way of making you forget what it was like to exist without the pain…. Especially after you have endured the pain for an extended period of time… And lately I have found myself really reflecting on the last 7 years of my life… And I have also found myself really trying to get past feeling like the same ol same ol will remain the same ol same ol… Cause I’m over it… And it honestly doesn’t … Continue reading “I can’t remember what it was like…”

Posted on May 9, 2022May 9, 2022Categories advice, decisions, growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , ,

Do you have the right to be upset…

Having unspoken expectations for someone is such a dangerous game to play in my opinion… And I say that because in most cases you end up being disappointed when the expectations aren’t met… But if you really think about it… Do you really have the right to be upset about an expectation not being met that you didn’t take the time to communicate in the first place? I think this is why I am oftentimes so confused when people don’t … Continue reading “Do you have the right to be upset…”

Posted on May 2, 2022May 2, 2022Categories advice, growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , ,

Thoughts on unsolicited advice…

Some people know that I am not at all a fan of unsolicited advice… And saying “I’m not a fan…” is actually putting it pretty mildly because I truly cannot stand when people give advice that I didn’t ask for because they’re “just trying to help…” And don’t get me wrong… I have no problem seeking out the wise counsel of someone when necessary…. But unsolicited advice is annoying because in my experience that advice has never been helpful because … Continue reading “Thoughts on unsolicited advice…”

Posted on April 25, 2022April 25, 2022Categories growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Clear the stage…

Lust is such an interesting thing… And while I have always attributed it to things within the realm of physical intimacy… the actual definition of lusting for something is “a passionate or overmastering desire or craving…” The way that lust is defined is something that I have thought a lot about the past 24 hours as I began to realize that I had started lusting after recognition in one area of my life… And this lust was not so strong … Continue reading “Clear the stage…”

Posted on April 18, 2022April 18, 2022Categories growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

Hills and valleys…

The last 10 plus months could easily be classified as the weirdest… and hardest… and dopest… most frustrating… most rewarding… most inspiring season of life where I have endured the hardest trials… have experienced the most emotional, mental, and spiritual growth… and have received some of the most amazing blessings… I have cried more tears than I knew were contained within my soul… And I say “soul” because that truly is where the pain and tears have flowed out of … Continue reading “Hills and valleys…”

Posted on April 11, 2022April 11, 2022Categories anticipation, decisions, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

Giving up control…

Life continues to force me to grow in my ability to be patient as I wait for certain things to happen that are out of my control… And most of the time it has been more so frustrating because I am generally the type of person who will try to do everything within my power to make things happen the way that I want them to or when I want them to… But there has been such a waiting game … Continue reading “Giving up control…”

Posted on April 4, 2022April 3, 2022Categories advice, conflict, decisions, growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Power struggles…

I have never really considered myself to be a “controlling” person… Like honestly I have always associated that characteristic with someone who is emotionally or physically abusive… But lately I have really found myself battling deep anger and frustration in circumstances where I have needed to yield to someone else’s control to avoid the unnecessary power struggle that would occur as a result of me trying to make sure things went the way that I had hoped or planned that … Continue reading “Power struggles…”

Posted on March 28, 2022March 22, 2022Categories grief, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Grief journal: March 2022…

Grief really has taken me on on such a wild journey the last several years… And as the years go by I am finding myself more and more irritated that this is not something that I can just overcome… And I also hate the fact that I will oftentimes get triggered by something unexpected… while not having the reaction that I expected to have when a milestone approaches… And somewhere along the way I heard it said that death was … Continue reading “Grief journal: March 2022…”

Posted on March 21, 2022March 20, 2022Categories anticipation, fresh start, growth mindset, hopeful, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

New realities…

Change is always kind of hard for me to accept… And maybe that’s not even the correct phrase to describe what I have experienced… but it always takes my mind and emotions a while to catch up with and embrace whatever new reality presents itself to me… And it’s kind of funny when I really think about it because I am such an overthinker and almost always obsess about anticipated changes before they happen… Yet once the change actually takes … Continue reading “New realities…”