Author Tamara Dawn Posted on January 23, 2023January 22, 2023Categories emotions, fresh start, growth, growth mindset, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , , , ,

To my first love…

Hey… I know it’s been a while… And I know I never announced my departure, but I knew I’d be back… I thought I would be back after things began to feel less repetitive and unfamiliar… When you really think about it, that doesn’t even make sense… But nevertheless nothing has really changed in that regard… And in some ways, I’ve learned to embrace the unfamiliar because I don’t really want to return to what I once knew… And even … Continue reading “To my first love…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on October 17, 2022Categories emotions, growth, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

Such is life I suppose (part 2)…

Lately I have had to make peace with the fact that certain outcomes haven’t (or may not) turn out the way that I hoped (or hope) they would… The past week has been hella draining and I have found it a little harder to stay focused or find the motivation to do the things that normally bring me joy… I also have unexpectedly cried as I drive from here to there… And then wipe my face before heading into a … Continue reading “Such is life I suppose (part 2)…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on September 12, 2022September 12, 2022Categories decisions, emotions, freedom, fresh start, friendships, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Relational Reflections…

Healing is starting to feel really exhausting… And it’s not so much the act of healing itself that’s exhausting… Because once the crying has ended (as that tends to accompany my healing as of lately) I feel freer and less weighed down… But healing is starting to feel exhausting because in some cases I’m still interacting with the very people who have caused the wounds that I am processing and working to heal from… And my healing is starting to … Continue reading “Relational Reflections…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on May 16, 2022May 16, 2022Categories advice, anticipation, grief, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , ,

I can’t remember what it was like…

Pain really has this way of making you forget what it was like to exist without the pain…. Especially after you have endured the pain for an extended period of time… And lately I have found myself really reflecting on the last 7 years of my life… And I have also found myself really trying to get past feeling like the same ol same ol will remain the same ol same ol… Cause I’m over it… And it honestly doesn’t … Continue reading “I can’t remember what it was like…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on March 21, 2022March 20, 2022Categories anticipation, fresh start, growth mindset, hopeful, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

New realities…

Change is always kind of hard for me to accept… And maybe that’s not even the correct phrase to describe what I have experienced… but it always takes my mind and emotions a while to catch up with and embrace whatever new reality presents itself to me… And it’s kind of funny when I really think about it because I am such an overthinker and almost always obsess about anticipated changes before they happen… Yet once the change actually takes … Continue reading “New realities…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on February 7, 2022February 7, 2022Categories anticipation, growth mindset, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

Going through the motions…

Loneliness has been a constant companion lately… and it’s kind of weird to wrap my mind around that concept because I have been interacting with more people on a regular basis than I normally do… Yet loneliness has still been a constant companion lately… And I am not one who really needs a ton of interaction with people because that can actually be quite draining to my inner introvert whose hobbies and career have always required extrovert behavior… But lately … Continue reading “Going through the motions…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on December 27, 2021December 27, 2021Categories advice, anticipation, decisions, fresh start, grief, growth mindset, hopeful, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , ,

There’s beauty found in starting over…

So once again I have “restarted” my workout journey… And though I guess technically it hasn’t been a month since my last workout, whenever I take a longer than expected break from working out, my body feels like it is experiencing the first workout… Starting over is never fun, but I have been thinking a lot about the beauty that can be found in having to start over… And I have also grown to appreciate the fact that I always … Continue reading “There’s beauty found in starting over…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on October 18, 2021October 18, 2021Categories advice, decisions, growth mindset, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , , ,

I hope this was helpful…

There are so many things that I could write about and once again I’m finding it hard to decide on one train of thought to ride this week.. So here is a list of a few random pieces of advice related to events that have occurred in the past week or so… 1- Know thyself, be secure in who you are, and be vocal about shutting things down when someone tries to give you a label that does not line … Continue reading “I hope this was helpful…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on October 11, 2021October 11, 2021Categories anticipation, growth mindset, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , ,

In the thick of it…

It’s crazy how when you’re going through something… especially something painful… you can get so caught up in what you’re going through that you forget what life was like before the painful situation… I was sick for about two weeks, and this is how it felt the last week of me being sick (which is the reason there wasn’t a blog post last week)… I slept so much, barely ate, and I was in so much pain; but that part … Continue reading “In the thick of it…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on September 13, 2021September 13, 2021Categories anticipation, growth mindset, hopeful, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , ,

Thoughts while in mid-air…

Taking a step of faith is such a wild process… And though I’ve taken many different steps of faith throughout my years on this earth, I can honestly say that there has never been a time that I didn’t doubt my decision… Especially after I’ve taken the step and my foot in kind of dangling in mid-air because it hasn’t quite landed back onto solid ground… Thoughts while in mid-air… Or maybe it’s more accurate for this to say “battles … Continue reading “Thoughts while in mid-air…”