Author Tamara Dawn Posted on October 17, 2022Categories emotions, growth, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

Such is life I suppose (part 2)…

Lately I have had to make peace with the fact that certain outcomes haven’t (or may not) turn out the way that I hoped (or hope) they would… The past week has been hella draining and I have found it a little harder to stay focused or find the motivation to do the things that normally bring me joy… I also have unexpectedly cried as I drive from here to there… And then wipe my face before heading into a … Continue reading “Such is life I suppose (part 2)…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on May 16, 2022May 16, 2022Categories advice, anticipation, grief, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , ,

I can’t remember what it was like…

Pain really has this way of making you forget what it was like to exist without the pain…. Especially after you have endured the pain for an extended period of time… And lately I have found myself really reflecting on the last 7 years of my life… And I have also found myself really trying to get past feeling like the same ol same ol will remain the same ol same ol… Cause I’m over it… And it honestly doesn’t … Continue reading “I can’t remember what it was like…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on April 18, 2022April 18, 2022Categories growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

Hills and valleys…

The last 10 plus months could easily be classified as the weirdest… and hardest… and dopest… most frustrating… most rewarding… most inspiring season of life where I have endured the hardest trials… have experienced the most emotional, mental, and spiritual growth… and have received some of the most amazing blessings… I have cried more tears than I knew were contained within my soul… And I say “soul” because that truly is where the pain and tears have flowed out of … Continue reading “Hills and valleys…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on April 11, 2022April 11, 2022Categories anticipation, decisions, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

Giving up control…

Life continues to force me to grow in my ability to be patient as I wait for certain things to happen that are out of my control… And most of the time it has been more so frustrating because I am generally the type of person who will try to do everything within my power to make things happen the way that I want them to or when I want them to… But there has been such a waiting game … Continue reading “Giving up control…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on February 21, 2022February 21, 2022Categories conflict, grief, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Hopefully I remember…

During the past several days I have learned how important it is for me to pour out all the mess that tends to float around in my heart and mind… And honestly you would think that I would know that as an external processor, but so often I forget that I can’t stuff the things that are truly bothering me… And there is something so refreshing and freeing about saying, yelling, or screaming out the things that are bothering me … Continue reading “Hopefully I remember…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on December 21, 2021December 21, 2021Categories conflict, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, journal, reflection, thought process, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , , , ,

Gratitude and frustration…

My thoughts have been all over the place lately… and that’s the main reason that this blogpost is late… Because it was such a struggle to decide what train of thought I would take you on… I really have so much to be grateful for… And my gratitude continues to motivate me to keep pushing towards by goals… Because I am truly walking in a season of answered prayers… And I want to steward this season well… But I simultaneously … Continue reading “Gratitude and frustration…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on December 13, 2021December 13, 2021Categories advice, decisions, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

It’s worth the work…

It’s so interesting how we can believe the lie that someone has a low opinion of us based on our own insecurities… I walked around unknowingly carrying around shame and condemnation for DECADES… I walked around believing the lie that others could see how worthless I felt… I walked around not really putting effort into relationships because I didn’t want to get too attached… It’s crazy how our own insecurities can keep us in a mental prison… It’s crazy our … Continue reading “It’s worth the work…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on December 6, 2021December 6, 2021Categories advice, anticipation, conflict, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , ,

What a time to be alive… Part 3

I often have to remind myself that my hope can’t be rooted in the “hope that things will get better…” And I’m not saying that I am not hopeful that things will get better… because I am… But if my hope is solely rooted in the “hope that things will get better…” and they don’t get better in that particular area… my foundation will be shaken… At least that has been my experience… And I think that’s why I struggle … Continue reading “What a time to be alive… Part 3”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on November 1, 2021November 1, 2021Categories advice, anticipation, growth mindset, hopeful, hopeless, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , ,

In the waiting… Part 2

Patience has never been a strength of mine… Ok I take that back…  Patience is an area that I have been forced to be strengthened in, but waiting is my LEAST favorite thing to do… And it’s so frustrating when I have done everything within my power to accomplish a goal and still have to wait on someone or something else to make it happen… Especially when there’s always this thought in the back of my mind that the other … Continue reading “In the waiting… Part 2”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on October 11, 2021October 11, 2021Categories anticipation, growth mindset, hopeless, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , ,

In the thick of it…

It’s crazy how when you’re going through something… especially something painful… you can get so caught up in what you’re going through that you forget what life was like before the painful situation… I was sick for about two weeks, and this is how it felt the last week of me being sick (which is the reason there wasn’t a blog post last week)… I slept so much, barely ate, and I was in so much pain; but that part … Continue reading “In the thick of it…”