Pain really has this way of making you forget what it was like to exist without the pain….
Especially after you have endured the pain for an extended period of time…
And lately I have found myself really reflecting on the last 7 years of my life…
And I have also found myself really trying to get past feeling like the same ol same ol will remain the same ol same ol…
Cause I’m over it…
And it honestly doesn’t matter what “it” is because we all have had battles that we’ve faced that have lasted a lot longer than we preferred they would…
And I know that ultimately the trials strengthen us and usually prepare us for the things we have prayed for and are working towards…
But as the saying goes “I’m tired of the things that aren’t killing me making me stronger…”
I have truly reached this point where I don’t know how much more I can take and I’m tired of crying every other day about the same ol things that I don’t have the power to change…
I am also getting tired of holding on to the hope that things will get better…
Because at this point I honestly can’t remember what life was like before this pain existed…