Posted on January 23, 2023January 22, 2023Categories emotions, fresh start, growth, growth mindset, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , , , ,

To my first love…

Hey… I know it’s been a while… And I know I never announced my departure, but I knew I’d be back… I thought I would be back after things began to feel less repetitive and unfamiliar… When you really think about it, that doesn’t even make sense… But nevertheless nothing has really changed in that regard… And in some ways, I’ve learned to embrace the unfamiliar because I don’t really want to return to what I once knew… And even … Continue reading “To my first love…”

Posted on September 19, 2022September 19, 2022Categories advice, conflict, decisions, emotions, freedom, fresh start, friendships, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , ,

If they wanted to know the truth…

There are people who don’t like you… People you have never interacted with… And these people don’t like you because of a version of you they heard about from someone you are no longer in relationship with… And what’s interesting about this is the fact that sometimes the version of you they describe is either a false version or a version of you that no longer exists… I have seen that happen from time to time in my own life… … Continue reading “If they wanted to know the truth…”

Posted on September 12, 2022September 12, 2022Categories decisions, emotions, freedom, fresh start, friendships, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Relational Reflections…

Healing is starting to feel really exhausting… And it’s not so much the act of healing itself that’s exhausting… Because once the crying has ended (as that tends to accompany my healing as of lately) I feel freer and less weighed down… But healing is starting to feel exhausting because in some cases I’m still interacting with the very people who have caused the wounds that I am processing and working to heal from… And my healing is starting to … Continue reading “Relational Reflections…”

Posted on September 5, 2022September 5, 2022Categories advice, conflict, freedom, friendships, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, journal, leadership, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , , , ,

How are they supposed to know…

Boundary… Noun… Something that indicates bounds or limits… Something that indicates the farthest limit… Something that communicates how far you are willing to go… Something that communicates what you are willing or not willing to tolerate… Now that I have done a ton of work to heal… Because trust me when I say this has not always been easy for me… But now that I have done a ton of work healing and trying to have healthier interpersonal skills and … Continue reading “How are they supposed to know…”

Posted on August 29, 2022August 28, 2022Categories emotions, freedom, fresh start, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , ,

Over and over and over again…

It’s really wild when I think about the fact that I have to make an intentional choice to be fully me wherever I go… Like why isn’t that something that just automatically happens by default? And I’m not talking about professionalism or assessing my environment and behaving accordingly… I’m referring to the moments I still have where I hesitate to expose a part of me that I think won’t be accepted in whatever space I am in… And as I … Continue reading “Over and over and over again…”

Posted on August 22, 2022Categories emotions, fresh start, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

The reintroduction…

The past few weeks have been extremely busy… were kind of chaotic at times… and had a little sickness thrown in for a little razzle dazzle… All while I was preparing for an extremely busy yet meaningful weekend… Such is life at times… I hated to NOT be able to post last Monday… but sickness caused me to get behind on a lot of things and this creative outlet had to be sacrificed… Also I will note here that I … Continue reading “The reintroduction…”

Posted on August 1, 2022August 1, 2022Categories emotions, fresh start, growth mindset, healing, hopeful, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , ,

Such is life I suppose…

I can honestly say that the journey to find healing has been filled with so many twists and turns… And it’s not like I ever really thought about what the journey would be like… But as of lately it has been filled with lots of tears and feelings of discomfort as fears and insecurities I had forgotten about have bubbled to the surface of my heart and mind…   I am also finding myself having to learn new ways to … Continue reading “Such is life I suppose…”

Posted on July 25, 2022July 25, 2022Categories emotions, fresh start, growth mindset, hopeful, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags ,

Caught up in the former reality…

As a creature of habit and a lover of creating habits and rhythms in my schedule… I have never really been a fan of “change” and have always known that it is hard for me to adjust to things when they are suddenly different… And it’s not like change hinders me from moving forward… because it doesn’t… But oftentimes I will just be on autopilot for a while until my mind and emotions catch up with my current reality… But … Continue reading “Caught up in the former reality…”

Posted on July 18, 2022July 18, 2022Categories conflict, emotions, friendships, growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

You don’t heal what you can’t feel…

This past week was the most emotionally draining week I’ve had in a long time… But as I sit and think about all of the emotions that I felt so deeply… the most painful thing about the past week was feeling like I don’t matter to people that matter to me… And let me be clear by stating that I do have great people in my life and have amazing friendships that are life-giving and mutually beneficial… So I am … Continue reading “You don’t heal what you can’t feel…”

Posted on July 11, 2022July 11, 2022Categories emotions, growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Honestly, I wish I didn’t care…

My emotions have really been all over the place lately and I have reached this place where I wish I could go back to the days when I was more numb, and didn’t feel everything so deeply… Because the emotions that I tend to feel deeply are generally more so connected to some sort of pain or frustration… Earlier I had to tell myself repeatedly that “you are not ‘less than’ because he wants nothing to do with you…” This … Continue reading “Honestly, I wish I didn’t care…”