It’s really wild when I think about the fact that I have to make an intentional choice to be fully me wherever I go…
Like why isn’t that something that just automatically happens by default?
And I’m not talking about professionalism or assessing my environment and behaving accordingly…
I’m referring to the moments I still have where I hesitate to expose a part of me that I think won’t be accepted in whatever space I am in…
And as I think about how foolish it is to hide any of the parts that make me… ME
I can’t help but to wonder when this started…
And I also wish I knew why I have carried out this foolish plan over and over and over again…
But what’s even more interesting is the fact that…
Despite my newfound freedom…
I still get a little bit of anxiety when I present parts of me that I hadn’t previously shared in certain environments…
It’s like I know I need to just fully be me…
And honestly…
Once I get past the anxiety I feel happier about not holding back whatever part of me I feared wouldn’t be accepted…
But it definitely is something that I have to work at and continue to intentionally choose…