This past week was the most emotionally draining week I’ve had in a long time…
But as I sit and think about all of the emotions that I felt so deeply… the most painful thing about the past week was feeling like I don’t matter to people that matter to me…
And let me be clear by stating that I do have great people in my life and have amazing friendships that are life-giving and mutually beneficial…
So I am not writing this to minimize who those people are in my life…
But despite all of the great people in my life…
Events took place in the past week that caused me to question relationships that I guess meant more to me than they did to the other parties involved…
And perhaps there is more to it than the way their behavior made me feel…
But the beauty amidst the tears was the fact that I allowed myself to just feel the feelings of pain and disappointment…
And I allowed myself to cry when needed…
And I did not forsake my feelings to place more focus on understanding the other person’s point of view…
And don’t get me wrong, there is definitely a place for that and it’s needed at times…
But too often I have ignored my own pain to focus on the “why” behind someone’s behavior…
And doing so has always delayed the healing process because you don’t feel the need to heal what you don’t allow yourself to feel…