I can honestly say that the journey to find healing has been filled with so many twists and turns… And it’s not like I ever really thought about what the journey would be like… But as of lately it has been filled with lots of tears and feelings of discomfort as fears and insecurities I had forgotten about have bubbled to the surface of my heart and mind… I am also finding myself having to learn new ways to … Continue reading “Such is life I suppose…”
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Caught up in the former reality…
As a creature of habit and a lover of creating habits and rhythms in my schedule… I have never really been a fan of “change” and have always known that it is hard for me to adjust to things when they are suddenly different… And it’s not like change hinders me from moving forward… because it doesn’t… But oftentimes I will just be on autopilot for a while until my mind and emotions catch up with my current reality… But … Continue reading “Caught up in the former reality…”
You don’t heal what you can’t feel…
This past week was the most emotionally draining week I’ve had in a long time… But as I sit and think about all of the emotions that I felt so deeply… the most painful thing about the past week was feeling like I don’t matter to people that matter to me… And let me be clear by stating that I do have great people in my life and have amazing friendships that are life-giving and mutually beneficial… So I am … Continue reading “You don’t heal what you can’t feel…”
Honestly, I wish I didn’t care…
My emotions have really been all over the place lately and I have reached this place where I wish I could go back to the days when I was more numb, and didn’t feel everything so deeply… Because the emotions that I tend to feel deeply are generally more so connected to some sort of pain or frustration… Earlier I had to tell myself repeatedly that “you are not ‘less than’ because he wants nothing to do with you…” This … Continue reading “Honestly, I wish I didn’t care…”
I definitely got off track…
It’s so easy to forget what helped you get to where you are once you get there… And I’m not referring to the people who supported you along your journey, although there ARE times that people forget who helped them to succeed… But what I am referring to is the habits and disciplines that helped you to establish the foundation that you built as you were working to achieve your goal… I have thought about this a lot lately because … Continue reading “I definitely got off track…”
I’m glad I chose me over them…
My mind has been all over the place lately and more often than not I find myself shocked and yet extremely grateful that I am finally starting to see all of my hard work and sacrifices solidify the fact that I will not have to return to the traditional 9—5… And of course this is what I wanted the outcome to be when I was forced to choose between building my company and remaining at my previous place of employment… … Continue reading “I’m glad I chose me over them…”
I’m okay with being the bad guy…
Knowing yourself and being secure in who you are is so important… And in my opinion, it’s kind of dangerous when you don’t know who you are, because there are people in your life (or people who really don’t know you and only know OF you) who will come up with their own conclusion(s) about you, or about your motives for why you choose to make the moves that you make… And if you don’t know who you are, or … Continue reading “I’m okay with being the bad guy…”
Remove yourself…
“When someone shows you who they are… believe them…” I have heard that saying said so many times throughout the years… And while I generally try to be the type of person who believes the best about people… I can admit that it has been extremely problematic when I have ignored someone’s toxic behavior and believed the best about them instead of believing who they were showing me that they were… “People only do what you allow them to do…” … Continue reading “Remove yourself…”
I guess it wasn’t writer’s block this time…
I have been trying to determine whether I was lacking motivation to write… Or perhaps I was lacking focus… Or maybe I was too in my head… But this week it was such a struggle to figure out what I wanted to write about… And that type of “writer’s block” hasn’t happened since before I started this blog… As a matter of fact, being unable to articulate myself on paper is honestly what led to me starting my podcast two … Continue reading “I guess it wasn’t writer’s block this time…”
Fear is a liar…
Fear is such a liar… It’s wild how the “fear” of something has generally produced way more anxiety than what actually happened when I had to face my fear(s)… And while I don’t generally let fear stop me from moving forward (although it has happened here and there)… I wish I didn’t begin new endeavors by overthinking and overanalyzing and assuming that the worst possible outcome will happen… Especially when fear is such a liar… I have thought about this … Continue reading “Fear is a liar…”