My thoughts have been all over the place lately… and that’s the main reason that this blogpost is late…
Because it was such a struggle to decide what train of thought I would take you on…
I really have so much to be grateful for…
And my gratitude continues to motivate me to keep pushing towards by goals…
Because I am truly walking in a season of answered prayers…
And I want to steward this season well…
But I simultaneously have so many justified reasons to feel the deep, deep frustration that has been dwelling in my heart and mind as of lately…
And that frustration continues to try to demotivate me…
Because I am simultaneously walking in a season of unanswered prayers…
My journal entries are all over the place because it is the best of times and the worst of times all at once…
But I really do have so much to be grateful for…
So I try to focus on that…
I try not to allow my frustration to overtake me…
I try not to allow my feelings to dictate what I will and will not do…
Because I really do have so much to be grateful for…
But I also remind myself that my frustration is justified and doesn’t negate my gratitude…
It’s okay for me to feel frustrated by the things that are frustrating me…
It’s okay for me to be upset that some of my prayers have gone unanswered and feel as if they are unheard…
As a human being I like to think that it is okay to allow my emotions to be more complex than simply being grateful OR frustrated…
So I am not forcing myself to choose between the two because I believe that they can both co-exist within my heart and mind…
Because it really is the best of times and the worst of times all at once…