Author Tamara Dawn Posted on April 1, 2021April 17, 2021Categories decisions, growth mindset, journal, reflection, relationships, single, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , 1 Comment on These can’t be my only options…

These can’t be my only options…

It’s always kind of funny when I sit down to type out a post… when I don’t really want to dive into the topic that’s weighing on my heart and mind… I guess ironic would be the more appropriate word since I’m not exactly laughing… but it’s ironic because I pride myself on being transparent… I mean I share my struggles so that others don’t feel alone in theirs… sometimes I wish I wasn’t this way because it forces me … Continue reading “These can’t be my only options…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on March 15, 2021April 17, 2021Categories grief, journal, reflection, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Grief journal… avoidance

On my podcast I often say, “I can only give yall what I got…” That’s the way that I record my content… but more so it’s the way that I’ve always lived my life… unapologetically me because I really can only give the world what I have to offer… no more… no less… But right now that mantra feels like a double-edged sword as I’ve been sitting here for a while, allowing myself to be distracted, so that I don’t … Continue reading “Grief journal… avoidance”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on March 1, 2021April 17, 2021Categories decisions, growth mindset, isolation, journal, reflection, transition, transparency, waitingTags , , ,

The journey from here to there…

I remember hearing this teaching where the instructor was explaining the process that a seed goes through to become a plant… The first thing that the gardener does is prepare the dirt and dig a hole… Then they put the seed in the hole… After they’ve placed the seed in the hole… they cover the seed with dirt so that it’s buried… the seed is also alone and isolated while it’s buried… After that the gardener waters the seed as … Continue reading “The journey from here to there…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on February 15, 2021April 17, 2021Categories friendships, journal, reflection, relationships, single, transparency, Uncategorized, waitingTags , , , ,

Getting to know You…

I see so many people talk about how hard this is to accomplish… but if I’m honest, making new friends as an adult has been pretty easy… Now I guess I should note that most of these adult friendships have been formed with coworkers or people who I’ve met at whatever church I was attending at the time… So oftentimes it was not hard to find common ground to build rapport upon… But now that I’ve decided to venture into … Continue reading “Getting to know You…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on February 1, 2021April 17, 2021Categories journal, reflection, transparency, Uncategorized, waitingTags , ,

I Really feel like It’s chasing Me…

I keep going back and forth about how I want yall to ride my train of thought throughout the duration of this post… but since I can’t seem to come up with a more appealing way to express these thoughts… I guess I’ll just put them out there… I’m pretty sure that I’ve spent the past 5 and a half years feeling like I was racing to escape death’s grip… Ok so there you go folks… I told you there … Continue reading “I Really feel like It’s chasing Me…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on January 15, 2021April 17, 2021Categories advice, decisions, journal, reflection, transparency, waitingTags , , ,

In the waiting…

I’ve never really been a fan of processes… or journeys… or whatever word you want to use to describe the, oftentimes, lengthy period of time that one has to endure to get from here to there… (wherever there may be…) And it’s not the hard work, discipline, or determination needed that I have an issue with… Because honestly, I get a sense of pride when I push myself beyond what I initially thought I could and accomplish things I didn’t … Continue reading “In the waiting…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on December 15, 2020April 17, 2021Categories decisions, isolation, journal, reflection, transparencyTags , , , , ,

Lonely

It’s crazy how minutes and hours and days and weeks and months and years go by… And while each moment is happening, certain choices may seem kind of insignificant in the grand scheme of who we are and what we will become… But then something happens that causes us to stop and reflect on the current events of our life… And suddenly we realize that we don’t exactly recognize the person that we have become… As I write this, the … Continue reading “Lonely”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on December 1, 2020April 17, 2021Categories journal, reflection, relationships, single, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , , 1 Comment on Stereo Hearts

Stereo Hearts

“My heart’s a stereo; it beats for you so listen close; hear my thoughts in every no-o-ote/ Make me your radio; and turn me up when you feel low; this melody was meant for you; just sing along to my stereo… ” ~Gym Class Heroes ft. Adam Levine <– (click if you want to listen) I may be old fashioned or a hopeless romantic, but as far back as I can remember, I’ve felt that there is a specific language … Continue reading “Stereo Hearts”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on November 15, 2020April 17, 2021Categories friendships, journal, reflection, relationships, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , , , , 2 Comments on The tragedy of Trauma Bonds

The tragedy of Trauma Bonds

Though I’m not usually one who ever tries to speak on behalf of anyone, I think that we can agree that most, if not all of us, have this desire to be seen, heard, or understood.  This is something that I have been reflecting on a lot lately as I’ve examined the way that I’ve built friendships over the past decade and a half of my adulthood. Things are so weird right now…  I can’t pinpoint the exact moment in … Continue reading “The tragedy of Trauma Bonds”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on November 1, 2020April 17, 2021Categories journal, reflection, relationships, single, transparency, UncategorizedTags , , , , , , , , 3 Comments on “If you happy I’m happy”

“If you happy I’m happy”

It’s crazy how a brief exchange of words can cause a greater impact than the sender probably intended… “If you happy I’m happy” Those five words made sense as the response to the preceding text, as we were discussing a decision I had made regarding a project we had worked on.  You would think I would have just said “ok” and allowed this part of the text thread to become nothing more than a soon to be forgotten memory. But … Continue reading ““If you happy I’m happy””