Author Tamara Dawn Posted on July 5, 2021July 5, 2021Categories grief, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, support, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

An interesting observation…

Grief is such a wild thing… and though life must continue to move forward… it seems like the hurt grows deeper with every year that passes… Today is the two-year anniversary of the day my uncle passed away… And June 29th was the six-year anniversary of the day my daughters’ father was killed… So for the past five years, my June 27th birthday has been this bittersweet day where my mind and emotions fluctuate between celebrating my life and bracing … Continue reading “An interesting observation…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on June 28, 2021June 28, 2021Categories growth mindset, introspection, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, relationships, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

I always bounce back…

For whatever reason, I have always been someone who is a pretty introspective person…  And certain milestones throughout the year tend to send my train of thought even that much deeper into the process of looking into myself… So with yesterday being my birthday, I shouldn’t be surprised that I’ve been deep in thought this morning… My birthday has always been this checkpoint where I pause and reflect on my life… my growth… and my hopes and dreams… But I … Continue reading “I always bounce back…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on June 21, 2021June 21, 2021Categories growth mindset, isolation, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Thoughts while on autopilot…

I’m not really sure what’s wrong… but lately I’ve found myself feeling very uninterested in… and unsatisfied with… things that have always brought me joy and made me feel “alive”… And though I am well aware that life isn’t always supposed to be exciting… nothing excites me anymore and everything feels more like a “chore” than a “privilege”… I’m also finding myself questioning everything… Like what’s the point of any of these creative projects that I pour myself into… who … Continue reading “Thoughts while on autopilot…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on June 14, 2021June 14, 2021Categories growth mindset, journal, Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , ,

Allowing myself to just feel it…

I hate waiting.. I actually think I’ve already written one or two blogs describing how much I hate waiting… But even more than that… I hate when I’m waiting for something… hoping that it will happen… and then things don’t work out the way that I had anticipated… I always describe this moment as the moment that hope and disappointment collide… Sigh… “when hope and disappointment collide… you’re often left standing in the shards of their collision…” It’s such a … Continue reading “Allowing myself to just feel it…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on June 7, 2021June 7, 2021Categories Monday's musing, reflection, thought process, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

What a time to be alive…

It’s kind of crazy how, when I’m presented with the opportunity to ask someone for help when it’s really needed… I don’t.  I mean I literally hate asking people to help me do anything… But don’t get me wrong, I’m not completely stubborn and will receive help when it’s offered… I am just not a fan of being the one to initiate the whole “help me…” process. I wish I could pinpoint the moment in time that I adopted this … Continue reading “What a time to be alive…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on May 15, 2021May 14, 2021Categories journal, reflection, transition, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , ,

A little of this and that…

This blogpost may end up being kind of random as I’m finding it hard to pinpoint one thing that’s really heavy on my heart or mind… but as I always say.. I can only give yall what I have… To start though, it’s worth noting that I’m on vacation right now, and between the six-hour drive from there to here, and the slooowed down pace to my days, I’ve had a lot more time to reflect than even the pandemic … Continue reading “A little of this and that…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on May 1, 2021May 1, 2021Categories decisions, friendships, growth mindset, journal, reflection, relationships, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

I’m glad that’s over…

I’ve never been more happy for a month to be over… April was wild… It was a hella busy month… it feels like I took a lot of L’s… and I started having these weird muscle spasms and/ or stiffness in my neck and upper back… Don’t get me wrong though… there were good things that happened as well… but I can honestly say that the bad outweighed the good… However… None of the previously mentioned things can remotely come … Continue reading “I’m glad that’s over…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on April 15, 2021April 17, 2021Categories growth mindset, isolation, journal, reflection, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , , ,

The watery release…

Of all the things that I can think of that I dislike doing, I am pretty sure that crying is pretty damn close to being at that top of that list if it’s not already in the number one spot… I hate crying… And though I am pretty sure that the average person is not a fan of crying… most of the time when I can feel that I am about to cry I stuff my emotions so that it … Continue reading “The watery release…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on April 1, 2021April 17, 2021Categories decisions, growth mindset, journal, reflection, relationships, single, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerability, waitingTags , , , , 1 Comment on These can’t be my only options…

These can’t be my only options…

It’s always kind of funny when I sit down to type out a post… when I don’t really want to dive into the topic that’s weighing on my heart and mind… I guess ironic would be the more appropriate word since I’m not exactly laughing… but it’s ironic because I pride myself on being transparent… I mean I share my struggles so that others don’t feel alone in theirs… sometimes I wish I wasn’t this way because it forces me … Continue reading “These can’t be my only options…”

Author Tamara Dawn Posted on March 15, 2021April 17, 2021Categories grief, journal, reflection, transparency, Uncategorized, vulnerabilityTags , , ,

Grief journal… avoidance

On my podcast I often say, “I can only give yall what I got…” That’s the way that I record my content… but more so it’s the way that I’ve always lived my life… unapologetically me because I really can only give the world what I have to offer… no more… no less… But right now that mantra feels like a double-edged sword as I’ve been sitting here for a while, allowing myself to be distracted, so that I don’t … Continue reading “Grief journal… avoidance”