There are so many different things that I am working towards… And there are so many battles I am simultaneously fighting in different realms of my life…
So I guess it shouldn’t be surprising that my thoughts have been all over the place lately…
But life truly seems very surreal these days, and I often find myself asking “is this real right now”…
I’ve also found myself quite fascinated by the concept of “family”…
I mean it’s just wild to me that you don’t get to choose your biological family. We are just born, and there they are ready to “family it up”… or not depending on the dynamics of said family.
Things also feel like someone is just freestyling my life’s script as most of my days are spent readjusting my plans to factor in yet another unexpected interruption… and more often than not it has been feeling like someone is somewhere saying “ok… now let’s just sprinkle this in for a little razzle dazzle…”
I’m also more exhausted than I’ve ever been and have reached this place where I’m not allowing my external trials to affect me internally.
And I’m not saying that I don’t care about what’s going on or happening to me… I’m just not allowing myself to remain angry about it because with a lot of this stuff… it’s out of my control and it just is what it is…