New level…
I would be lying if I said that there aren’t times that I miss the old level… the level that didn’t continually require that I shed away so many things that have been such a huge part of who I am… things that are now unnecessary and a hindrance to me moving forward…
New habits…
I would also be lying if I said that I don’t sometimes miss the ways that I used to cope with frustration, disappointment and rejection… because the old ways didn’t force me to admit and feel the pain that I was trying to escape… but the old ways are also a hindrance to me moving forward…
It’s crazy how forward motion is forcing me to leave so many things behind…
It’s crazy how fears and insecurities that I thought had been dealt with have bubbled to the surface as I am forced to interact in new environments…
New level and New habits…
I’m fearful at times because there is so much that is unfamiliar… but woven throughout the fear is this eagerness to shed away whatever is a hindrance to forward motion…
New mindset…
I would be lying if I said that anything that has or is being shed away… is anything I truly want to hold onto more than I want to move forward…
The old has passed away… the new has come… the present will pass away… the new will come…
New levels and New habits…